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Phillip Schofield has said he has "lost everything" and asked "do you want me to die" in an interview following news of his affair.
The former This Morning presenter spoke to the BBC earlier this morning (June 2) in the wake of the news of his affair with a young male colleague breaking last week.
The 61-year-old spoke told the broadcaster that he feels his "career is over" and that he has "lost everything".
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Although he admitted that the affair was a "grave error", he reiterated that the pair were "not boyfriends" and had engaged in romantic encounters just a half a dozen times.
He said: "I have to talk about television in the past tense, which breaks my heart. I have lost everything.
"What am I going to do with my days? I see nothing ahead of me but blackness, and sadness, and regret, and remorse, and guilt.
"I did something very wrong, and then I lied about it consistently."
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He revealed that his colleague was just 20 years old when they first had any sort of sexual contact — which took place in his ITV dressing room — and that he blamed himself for the affair, despite it being "consensual".
He explained: "He is an innocent party here. I was older, I should have known better. [The affair] was consensual, but it was my fault."
He added that he has had suicidal thoughts since the news broke, crediting his daughters for his desire to keep fighting on.
"Last week, if my daughters hadn't been there, I wouldn't be here. They've been by my side every moment because they're scared to let me out of their sight," he said.
The presenter revealed that he believes that homophobia played a part in the huge backlash that he received, exclaiming that: "If it was male-female then it wouldn't be such a scandal".
He said: "I fully appreciate there is a massive age gap, but that happens in life.
"I think there is an enormous amount of homophobia that it happens to be male, but if it was male-female then it wouldn't be such a scandal."
He confirmed that his This Morning co-star Holly Willoughby "did not know" about the affair, adding that "nobody knew".
Schofield added he "absolutely did not" make the man sign a non-disclosure agreement and said he would be free to speak to the media if he wanted to.
As part of the outrage of the news of his affair, the TV star was also dropped as an ambassador for the Prince's Trust, something he said "broke my heart".
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